(time after time)

Tuesday, June 30, 2009 || 5:16 PM

It's quite funny sometimes you think back and recall the things you've said and the things you were thinking at the point of time and now, you're thinking otherwise. it's almost contradicting but somehow possible? yeah. God give everyone the opportunity to see someone's other side or even someone's true colors. somethings that were left unsaid or undone, might never be done in this lifetime anymore. like they say, opportunity don't come knocking on your door twice. it's so true. even if it did, it's a lie. it's just a lie in disguise. trust me, it really is. &no matter how much sincerity or whatever it was for the second time, it's a lie. really, a stupid idiotic meaningless childish irritating lie.

Lost my drive for music now. Maybe my passion or my 'love' for music is only to the extend of a hobby, a leisure activity, something that i can do when i have free time. &maybe,I'm just don't have that music genes inside of me. that sounds terribly odd and wrong. but yeah, the meaning's is just that.

Now, im too scared to fall. and somehow, i guess im a soreloser? is that what you call it ? &somehow, i just dislike the feeling of not being the best. yeah, im a sucker. really big time, competitive asshole. sheeeeeesh. looking at who was 4years ago, i wasnt this competitive at all. i was completely happy and carefree. looking at me now, im so competitive. somehow, i dont even seem to do anything about it. am i in the wrong ? just trying my best to be at the top? ive nothing to count on except for working hard to be the top.

Okay, musis studies music studies music studies. im so envious people have other people to guild them. somehow, most of the things i have and can ever count on, is myself. no one is there to help me. &every step i climb to the top, is draining my energy because ive no one to guild me there.

Physics books,

Saturday, June 27, 2009 || 10:04 PM

Wow, O level Mt oral is in like, less than 1week or so. how time flies, before i know it, it's already the start of july. i agree with sabrina. when she said that time would fly super fast, before we know it, it's the start of 2o1o. gosh, i think i shouldnt even think so far. just think about O levels would do. sorta liked that 1week temp physics teacher at tuition. at least he kept me awake and i did think and understood something. the previous one, was really 'on my own' ! \:

Manage to borrow physics novels and those physics books. they're like, freaking awesome. hahahaha ! especially the one that's titled " the elegant universe". man, the book drive me crazy ! *boooms baby* did you know that there are 4elements in the world namely: Earth,Fire,Water and Air. and did you know that the falling apple experiment, is actually about the earthy and watery element in the apple trying to find it's natural position in the Earth ? hah, sounds odd and a little weird. but the book slowly talks more about it. they talked about the Antimatter too. about Quantum Mechanics and all. omgggggg, i was reading it yesterday. i couldnt help but think about it the whole night. so decided to borrow it. thank God the book is still there :D i sounded like some Singaporean-Kia-Su. (: Quarks, Top,Bottom, Positrons and electrons. i was amazed by the book ! borrowed another book titled : The infinite cosmos. a book about cosmology and the infinite universe. something i noticed in all the books ive read about physics and all, is they kept mentioning about "the big bang". yeah, i read in another book about astronomy on how the Earth's moon is formed. The Earth's moon was formed when a gigantic rock hit the Earth's surface and it cause the rock fragments to form a circular ring around the Earth. the rock fragments started to collect over time and it formed the moon. Veryyyyyyyy interesting (:

Okay, got to go revise on lenz's law and farady's law of induction and amaths. \: i hate proving and trigo. shucks ! ):

Brought this upon myself,

Thursday, June 25, 2009 || 6:23 PM

I brought this upon myself. serve me right. dammit.

shag now, &i guess it's all thanks to sleeping at 3am last night.waking up at 7.35am this morning. Never do that kid. it's pure madness.Because the next day when you go back to school, you feel tired like what the heck & you'll wanna stretch yourself every 10mins or so. hahaha, the stretching part is applicable for me. (; but for the feeling tried , it's really true. try it if you dont believe me (: but i really wouldnt advise you at all to even try it. just accept the fact(:

Ive been procrastinating with the SCI video for 2weeks{as of yesterday} since ive started work during the start of the 2nd week of my dearest June holidays. &ive finally finished the other half of the video last night at 2.15am. man, i think something will go wrong if i keep sleeping this late. tsk tsk ! but how shag im feeling right now, i guess i bought this upon myself. i was the one who chose to procrastinate. i was the one who chose to have fun first. i was the one who whose to ignore the video since i thought and assumed 'i had more than enough time' to get it done. so that left me with no option but to burn midnight oil last night. well, i chose to watch "Transformers2: Revenge of the Fallen" yesterday at 5.30pm & the show ended at around 8pm. and by the time i get serious and started doing the video, it was 10.30pm. yeah, well done yeesuan. you bought this upon yourself.

Procrastination isnt a qualities of a leader. and that definitely not good at all. i mean, it's a super duper wuper bad habit. and somehow, though i seem like im bragging, im not. i mean, when you go out to work in the future, procrastination would even cause you your job which you depend on for income. and who knows, maybe the entire family depends on your job for the monthly expenses.

Man, i should really start to discipline myself. for my future. for everything. arghhhhhh. tired. okay, i guess im gonna really crash early tonight.

HEADLINES !

Sunday, June 21, 2009 || 9:46 PM

I.Cant.Believe.This.

PRINCETON has a plasma physics laboratory ! *screams*

I mean, MAJOR HEADLINES ! it has been there for quite some time { since 1961 as a matter of a fact} but i mean, first time hearing it hello. omgs ! everything there = AWESOME ! for some geeky nerd like me. omggggggs ! *over the moon* E found it very interesting too :D though i know, it isn't exactly interesting for him (: C'mon E. you know you don't exactly like physics and you prefer _______? (: hahaha, knowing you for quite some time i do know a bit about you eh :D

Went to most of the I.L.U websites and profiles. don't really understand why the quiz said I'm suitable for Columbia's. pretty odd. now I'm very very very fascinated with princeton. :D hahahaha ! But their annual fee = WOOOOOH ! it's really the 'bomb'! yeahh, in my parents and my own pocket. well, work hard and hope i'll be able to make it in this little red dot's own. (:

i guess i really have a big dream/ambition (: cheers to dreams ! (:

Messed up,

Friday, June 19, 2009 || 11:56 PM

They say that people messed up sometimes. And they say that people would do anything to undo whatever they've done and do it again. sometimes,i feel that way too. but come to think of it, will i be able to accept things the other way around that easily ? and even if i did, what price do i need to pay ? would that be worth it ?

i know as time passes by, readers are slowly getting sick of reading the word " price" in my texts and posts. but hey, i mean everything you want in life, has it's own price to pay. like, you're madly in love of your best friend's boyfriend. and you want him to be yours and not your best friend's. in this case, the price you have to pay in doing so is ruining your friendship with your best friend. another example: you want to steal your brother's favourite watch which your mom gave him for his sweet 16th birthday. the price you have to pay in doing so is your pride, integrity, your relationship with your brother.

frankly speaking, i've messed up a few things in life. not now, but previously and who knows most probaby i'll mess up a few other things in life in the future. &everytime that happens, all i ever did was just sleep. not the best remedy but a short and fast way to escape reality for a moment or two. i am clear of the the things ive messed up and the price i paid. and how much i dread it, but all i can ever do now is wait and pray? yeah. wait and pray that as time passes by, my second chance would come and that is when i'll start over with life. not reliving my life, but starting anew somewhere else.

i hate to do that, moving to somewhere else new. migrating to the states when i grow up. go there, make it big in the career field. and hopefully, settling down there. with Globalisation, that would mean brain-drain? yeahhhh. though im not some smartypants that singapore needs. what i meant was that im not some important person that even if i leave here, it'll effect the economy big time or what. but somehow, it's feel it's leaving who you are behind and try searching for who you can be somewhere else. only the "leaving who you are behind" is the one thats bad. some people did laugh at my plan for life. boring, no-life, yadah yadah. well, thats me. boring, draggy yeesuan(:

I guess, sometimes when you messed up in life, it's either you clean up the messed you've made. or wait for a second chance&start over again. so far in the 16years ive been living on my lovely planet Earth, ive started my life for about 7times? well, here comes the 8th time.

Dance,

Thursday, June 18, 2009 || 10:55 PM

Dance dance dance. what is dance exactly ? &what makes dancers so amazing when they're dancing their routine? Well. Dance is like a form of art. Dancers are like artists&their routines are like the end product of a painting. have you ever seen Picasso break dancing ? no. but he sure know how to make a awesome piece of art. (: &have you seen ballerinas paint the Mona Lisa? no. But they sure know how to make a routine look graceful and elegant to the max. (:

I believe, that dancing is all about expression, moves and perfection. like for break dancing, you don't see them smiling throughout while dancing their routine. the express their comments about their tracks or audience through their dance routines and through their moves. A really awesome dance would be able to be express their feelings and emotions freely through their dance.

Moves. the moves of a dance routine would depends on the piece or song that the dancer is dancing to. A really great dance would be able to adjust or adapt to the different types of ambiance that the piece/song would create. take a ballerina for example. For ballet, the pieces are usually classical and mostly either piano or a short recital piece. for all cases,a great ballet dancer's moves need to, at all times, be as graceful as a swan and it must portray a dance with elegance and poise. A ballet dancer's moves have to be slow, and always bringing a smooth ambiance. Another example would be a break dancer. for breakdancing, the songs selected are usually hiphop with some edits to make the entire song flow with a particular rythm. In this way, the break dancers would be able to do the different type of stunts or moves they've learnt. in break dancing, the moves focus on the rhythm and in most case, it's the 'flow'. Breakdancing would consists more of 'ripples' in their routines and in some routines, the 'robot' techniques to add more colours to their routine. Every type of dance or track, requires the dancer to protray a certain image. Creativity is also an important factor that would affect a dancer's career. what seperates a great dancer and a ordinary dancer is their's creativity on how are they going to protray a certain image with moves that their teachers dont teach them. a dancer can learn how to dance every dance that exists in this world but if they have never invent their own routine, then what difference does that make from the other dancers who have dance all the dances they've learned? sometimes, it's not always about the quantity but the quality of something eh (:

&lastly, Perfection.whats the point of dancing your own routine when you just do it so slipshop? it loses the effect it's suppose to have. man! i mean, think of it. imagine you're choreograph an awesome dance routine. but when you dance that awesome routine super slipshop, then it loses its punch. you can have the best dance routine ever, but you'll never be a great dancer because you didnt perfect that awesome dance routine. And by saying perfection, it means giving it 101% and doing the whole thing properly and perfect.once you've all got that, you're up for almost anything in this career (:

All the above mentioned points are my opinion on if you wanna consider becoming a professional dancer or a great dancer. if you are talking about dancing as a hobby. all you need to do and remember is just to have fun & have the time of your life ! (: just grab a few friends, pick a few hot tracks and start dancing ! you dont even need to go to the dance studio to do that. just do that in your living room or if there's enough space, your own room ! it's normal to go wild with the things you like to do and wanna do. so just heck with all the pride or whatever& just have fun ! (:

Well, wont you look at that. it's 1plus in the morning. &i better hit the hay. cheerios people & will blog about something soon. till then, takecare my lovely readers ! (:

SCI,

Wednesday, June 17, 2009 || 12:15 AM

Was watching last year's SCI video. the video of the entire event.
Was completely stunned that my hair was that short .
Gosh, it was madness alright.
&thats not only it, my hair was like CRAZY CURLY MAD AND MESSY.
*smack forehead*
alamak ..

Saw the song the seniors dedicated to mrs rupesh and ms soo.
couldnt understand why then, everyone was crying like mad.
tears came flowing down like some loose and spoilt tap.
just kept flowing and flowing.
I remembered how hard i was trying to hold back my tears.
&at the end when everyone was downstairs getting refreshments,
i couldnt take it. i went up with them and starting crying and hugging them.

I remembered how hard i cried when i hugged Hazel. my first buddy, first senior friend i made when i first enter council.She taught me things that no one else did. &she was there for me. even though we didnt speak much after i've new friends. but still, we would say hello and all when we see each other. To me, she's a role model. she's the model student for her batch (: she is too, my role model. she was a professional person who would handle situations just right and she never fails to push others to keep going on. &when everyone's feeling down, she'll smile brightly and tell everyone that it's alright. we can make it. we must not give up. when i hugged her, all the memories of who i was before came back. a worthless kid,causing trouble to people around me. making a fool of myself when i could have been better back then. She didnt give up on me. she tried to persuade me. she motivated me, helped me and maybe she defended me when i couldnt stand up by myself. Hazel, you're one person i'll never forget in my secondary school life.

i wonder how this year's SCI's going to turn out.
*ponders*
okay, change subject.
back to our 'fav' subject and so far, the one ive been rambling about: Love.

love. love. love. love. complicated thing. i once told someone: never follow my footsteps if it's about love. im not very successful in love. COMPLETELY unsuccessful as a matter of a fact.trust me. For all the relationships ive been in, it's either:
(a) the guy's a jerk or
(b) me putting my heart more in work and studies.
i remembered how much ive hurt someone. how i put my relationship not as a priority and slowly, i started losing the trust and love of the person i love then. when i came to my senses and wanted to put my relationship as a priority, the person walked away. He couldnt trust me anymore. that's situation one.

Situation two was when there's a mixture of the guy being a jerk and me putting my heart more in work and studies. well, blame both parties. but somehow, i just missed those times you held me in your arms and the times we laugh with each other. enjoying each other's company. especially esplanade. i really missed those times. if i ever lose my memories and can only keep one memory. i would choose that memory on the rooftop of esplanade. come to think of it, there were empty promises. like, we'll take pictures and have fun snapping photos. and being together. i still remembered you said we'll last and you'll come over next chinese new year. pft. i saw it through then that something like that, wouldnt happen. &my dream, of you and me in our twenties and travelling around the world as a happy working couple. i guess it was really just a dream.

somehow, im 'holding' onto that dream. hoping that it'll be the dream i dream about every night whenever i close my eyes. still, hoping. for the same dream.

white lie,

Thursday, June 11, 2009 || 8:31 PM

My mama said that happy endings are usually a white lie.
happy endings dont exactly exists in this world.
because when one experience a happy ending,
they'll feel happy at first, but they forgotten the price they 'paid' for the happy ending.

After some time, when they realised the price they've paid,
they start to regret what they've done.
Then the happiness from the happy ending, wont exists anymore.

Really makes me wonder about that. happy endings are so relative. ive always thought it depends on both parties and it'll turn out one{happy ending} if both of them are happy. who knew, there was a different perspective to this. &from my Mama.

To some extent, i find what she said about happy endings is true. remember when i was young, when i foolishly believed those stories like cinderella or snow white ? when your knight in shiny armour would appear and save you and you'll live happily ever after? so far, living about almost 16years in this world, i dont remember anything like that ever happened. i mean, maybe its because im still young and maybe my 'knight in shining armour' might come when im older. but now,i think, teenage love is completely childish. we argue over stupid things and we get hurt so easily. and for what price ? get hurt again ? so that we would find our 'happy ending' at the end of the day ?

Love is something very open. i guess, it's hard to open ones heart maybe it's becuase you had enough 'exposure' to the topic and you dont wish to 'revisit' the topic until you're ready that kind of thing ? i guess so. i dont know and never felt that one's love for someone else can be so strong that even after a long time, you'll still love that person. sometimes, maybe it's because im weird.

i did met a person, whom love this person so much that even after a year later, he/she still loves the other party. i admire the other party so much to have met someone like that. but somehow, somethings that arent meant to be, wont be together in the end.

but somehow, sometimes i do wish that you would be like that person. a person whom i love you and in return, you'll love me back. shower me all the love in the world and we'll just have the time of our life. i did wished that before. i thought you were before. but somehow, i guess im falling in love with the person whom i wanted&wished you could be and not the you in reality. but even though i fallen in love with that person, at the same time i fallen in love with the real you. how funny can love gets eh. well, i suppose all these doesnt matter.

i used to tell this to someone " Let her go. she have already moved on with life and you should too. once you've really moved on with life, you'll never look back. and even if you did look back, your heart will never return to the way it was then. the way you love the person back then" letting something go is easy. forgetting someone isnt that hard either. but trying to make your heart move on, might be a little bit tougher than anyone expected it to be. though ive moved on, somehow memories of you came flowing back to my mind. the times at the swing. when i threw something into the river, when we would walk that long journey after a awesome dinner at prataplace and when we would go to the beach. i really love that night before the camp, at the beach. you took the time out to spend time with me, solely just spending time and enjoying one another's company. when the time, on the esplanade rooftop when you asked and we threw stones. when the time, we started naming buildings are our toilets, cupboards, kitchen and all. when the time, we go to borders or kino to make fun of 'psycology for dummies' and other books. when the time, we'll get pretzels and go to the toyshop at taka and play with all the toys inside. when the time we head to town every saturday evening after my tuition. when the time we would have dinners at NYNY and when my coke float overflow. when the time we went to the singapore river and started saying what if a guy pee-d from the bridge above into the river. when the time you hugged me before i go into my house. when the time during the 10th anniversary full dress rehearsal, you left your phone in my file&your mum called and i ran to give it to you & you hugged me and said you were touched. when the time i skipped tuition and we went to semb beach to hear the ocean breeze and you'll hold my hand while i was in deep thoughts. when the time we laughed at our past and said what an asshole we were back then. when the time, you said next chinese new year you'll come over again like two years ago. when the time, we would laugh at others ____. when the time you were all-pokemon. &when the time, i'd laugh at your childhood pictures and you'll tell me not to. when the time i said you were my motivation to study and you said that i will be yours when school starts for you. and when the time, you asked me out for Valentine's.

Ive always wanted you to come for this year's SCI. to see me perform on stage with my fellow councillors for our sec4 item and i want you to be there sitting at the invited guests and supporting me all the way. i guess, that wasnt going to happen. not fated to happen i suppose. sometimes, i dont know how am i going to response to you on SCI day. i really wonder, be friendly? be bimbotic? or will it be awkward ? i really dont know.

I guess many have mistaken between me & _. we're just close friends. i listen to _ and _ listens to me when i need a listening ear. he watches out for me and i do the same for him. thats all. nevermind, i think i should stop saying all this. bye.

time out ?

Monday, June 8, 2009 || 8:45 PM

i believed otherwise.
i chose otherwise.
i did otherwise.
thats why, i became otherwise.

life is full of choices. day in and day out, we have to make at least a choice. it might be the most insignificant question like, should i use the washroom ,to the most important question like, will you marry me. The different choices we make, would make us who we are today. a monster? an angel? a goody-two-shoes? a naive kid? everything. it makes us who we are.

sometimes, i feel im very foolish. and at times,too naive or too 'smart' in my opinion. to think things so complicated. my choice then was to study hard and move on with life. with or without people by my side always, wasnt much of a deal. now, looking back. i was foolish. but i'll never regret what ive done.

although i didnt get to experience much of it, at least i got something in return. my results. though it isnt very great or perfect, im satisfied with myself for for the first time, making an effort and taking charge of my own education and finally reaping what i sow. it wasnt what i expected, i expected more. but there was a sense of satisfaction.

All these complicated feelings, are they really necessary? all these arguments, heart talk, jealousy. is it really necessary ? am i trying to be smart once again? there are times i really regret what ive done. but i had to pysco myself saying " your future, this is what you need to do" maybe, im a person who cant multitask very well. to be in love, to be with friends , strive to get good grades &above all things, spend time with family. i wouldnt make it. especially for striving to get good grades. i couldnt. a person has it's own limits. &sometimes in life, you cant be the best in everything. but you can be the best in something. God made us that way. He give and take.

Sometimes, i think of God's plan for all of us is simple. He'll say " give me something and i'll return you something in return". He might give us all the toughest challenges and the hardest decisions, but he know it was necessary for us. I couldnt give my whole heart to you D. I couldnt spend time with you then D. i couldnt. i had to "give & take". &Im sorry , it's us that has to go.

I realised,ive been trying to close myself from love since two years ago. maybe im sick of those non-stop crying at night. crying on the phone at 1am and talking my heart out. J, at one point, i decided to try opening my heart to you, i got back a whole bucket filled with heartache. D, i was hoping things would work out for you and me this time. i guess not. maybe it was you. and partly it was me. when you initiated not staying as it was then, i had to be strong. even though i wasnt, i had to at least act strong. at least act strong in front of you. I had nothing to cling onto. nothing, there for real. i only had _. yet, i chose to let it go. but it taught me a lesson. dont ever be to naive, to believe that something cannot happen twice.

You know, the choices ive made in life so far. it has cost me a lot, but every price paid, had it's own reason and definitely taught me a lesson. if you say regrets, i might have a few. but those things were what that make me strive to be a better person or at least not make the same mistake again.

Wow, ive written quite a lot for today. well, maybe today has been a mad day for me. in so many ways. &maybe, im starting to open up and hopefully stop lying to myself. i guess, i need a time out in terms of this.well, this really is the only place for the escaper to say everything she wants to say. like the name means, escape-r (:

Mad,

Sunday, June 7, 2009 || 11:23 PM

This is awfully odd.

It's like, im waiting for something to happen.
like, im hoping for something to happen.
Am i out of my mind again ?
I must be. yes im mad.

whenever the phone rings, i was hoping it was you.
yes, im mad. shit, im mad.

dilemma. dilemma. dilemma.
How can _ ever accept _? ahhhhhhh, im mad. yes, _ will never accept _ more than what they are now. yeah. correct correct. will never accept.
is this me really falling in love or just me finding someone to be there for me. ))))):

Woken up,

Saturday, June 6, 2009 || 7:34 PM

Found out i was too laid back about life.
dammit. thanks for the wake up call yeah.
i woke up from all the complacency &Came to my senses now.

Happy birthday Jolene(:

Thursday, June 4, 2009 || 10:57 PM

"The truth is, maybe i wanna get caught"

This weekend must take the time out and relax.
Catch up with school work and all.
Man, havent been doing revision.
this is shit, im a loser .\:

Dinner was funny, high and all.
Scrape ice-cream eh :D
&happy birthday my dearest jolene ! (:
You're finally seventeen*echoesMAGAZINE!*
hahaha, that's awfully lame(:

Im heading town with jolene tomorrow.
we're gonna do that madshopping plus get jolene's hair cut ! :D
*muahahahaha!*
hahahah ! i sounded eeeeeeevil :D
&followed by baking & sleepover with movies and popcorn (:
&&&I CAN SLEEP TILL 10AM TOMORROW !
Been going school with a sleepyhead. tsk !

Realised recently, when im smsing at night,
i'll somehow fall asleep suddenly &Im afraid i replied stupid things to people who texted me.
i remembered i replied a teacher a message with so many weird spelling errors &I was completely not making sense in the message. hahahahah !
i scared i reply E with something super funny and no-sense message.
Mannnnn, this is bad.

alrighty, gonna go get some beauty sleep.
needa catch up with my dreams (:
&damn, my dreams are super weird. |:

random(:

Wednesday, June 3, 2009 || 7:51 PM

Pictures soon (:
once Naz & ZQ/Mich uploads them :D
&Seeeki too :D

more and more things happening .
&Seeki, i wanna go sakae ! :D this time, at sunplaza lah :D
&&Siying: OKAY LAH ! i give in lah.botanic? (: how come can only go out once ? ):
Baking this friday, i hope hope hope :D
Together with sleepover, I HOPE HOPE HOPE HOPE ! :D

random thoughts:
man, im really worried about you, you and you ): *sigh*
even more random thoughts:
Am i trying to pretend as if like nothing happened and as if i ____ _____. what am i thinking man. im out of my mind. i need beach.

&Im random. i wanna eat butter popcorns,nutella + bread, garlic spread+bread, fish&chips,salmon at NYNY, fresh salmon at sakae sushi and finally waffles+ ice cream &chocolate fondue at gelare . man, those are the bomb yeah ! im some fatass dumbdumb that enjoys food :D
&psssssst ! i nearly fall asleep today during english . O.O the fan was blowing directly at me okayy. (:

High (;

Tuesday, June 2, 2009 || 5:59 PM

Currently holding this glass bottle with some really awesome drink inside.
Currently high, like wooh .
Yeah, im high now (:
&The drink = the bomb ! ♥
(:

I cant believe im gonna say this. i love you.
&no doubt about that yea ! :D
*high*

Oh, did i mention ?
the name of the drink ?
yeahhhh. it's called ..
COKE ! :D :D :d :D
&who was i refering to when i was saying i love you ?
my dearest lappy (;

Im the geekiest loser ever .
but hey, thats me right (:
&Did i ever mention " close to you- carpenters" is superrrrr nice.
Maybe im not over you. or am i just thinking im not over you when i really am? im confused. &this time, i dont think i can consult E ):

Im sorry ):

Monday, June 1, 2009 || 8:31 PM

Life is really vulnerable . too vulnerable.
Who knows, the next moment you'll lose something important in life.
lose things in a way, that you cant stop it from happening.
it had nothing to do with your choices in life.
it's just, losing something.

I really dont know how to face life,
when one day the same thing happen to me.
or a similar situation. i dont know whether i'll be able to even get on with life.
i really dont know,what will i do then.

I guess even then, E wouldnt be able to help me fully get on with life.
E:I think, that is something too much to handle i guess ? &moving on with life for that case, would completely be on myself.

Im sorry. im really very sorry ):

Owned (:

|| 6:50 PM

Chinese was unexpected (:
I love this paper, & shit if i was careless with it.
it was really really, easy. maybe because i studied the correct thing. hah !
E:lucky eh ? (;

I love rehearsals with sec4s (:
They'll do stupid things and we'll all laugh like mad. :D :D :D
Gonna bring cam during one of the rehearsals and camwhore like mad.
omg, im taking picture of changhee's face!
Always cant see his eye. hahahaha !

&yeahman! im gonna watch movies tonight ! :D
Im some dumbass slacker . tsk tsk *shake head*
&I just realised, that the movie Daredevil looks nice.
im superrrrr slow. \: