They say that people messed up sometimes. And they say that people would do anything to undo whatever they've done and do it again. sometimes,i feel that way too. but come to think of it, will i be able to accept things the other way around that easily ? and even if i did, what price do i need to pay ? would that be worth it ?

i know as time passes by, readers are slowly getting sick of reading the word " price" in my texts and posts. but hey, i mean everything you want in life, has it's own price to pay. like, you're madly in love of your best friend's boyfriend. and you want him to be yours and not your best friend's. in this case, the price you have to pay in doing so is ruining your friendship with your best friend. another example: you want to steal your brother's favourite watch which your mom gave him for his sweet 16th birthday. the price you have to pay in doing so is your pride, integrity, your relationship with your brother.

frankly speaking, i've messed up a few things in life. not now, but previously and who knows most probaby i'll mess up a few other things in life in the future. &everytime that happens, all i ever did was just sleep. not the best remedy but a short and fast way to escape reality for a moment or two. i am clear of the the things ive messed up and the price i paid. and how much i dread it, but all i can ever do now is wait and pray? yeah. wait and pray that as time passes by, my second chance would come and that is when i'll start over with life. not reliving my life, but starting anew somewhere else.

i hate to do that, moving to somewhere else new. migrating to the states when i grow up. go there, make it big in the career field. and hopefully, settling down there. with Globalisation, that would mean brain-drain? yeahhhh. though im not some smartypants that singapore needs. what i meant was that im not some important person that even if i leave here, it'll effect the economy big time or what. but somehow, it's feel it's leaving who you are behind and try searching for who you can be somewhere else. only the "leaving who you are behind" is the one thats bad. some people did laugh at my plan for life. boring, no-life, yadah yadah. well, thats me. boring, draggy yeesuan(:

I guess, sometimes when you messed up in life, it's either you clean up the messed you've made. or wait for a second chance&start over again. so far in the 16years ive been living on my lovely planet Earth, ive started my life for about 7times? well, here comes the 8th time.