OH.MY.FORKING.SHIT.

i can just scream any minute. ohmyshit, i feel so angry !
It's almost as if anger has gotten the better of me.
it's like, ARGHGHHHHHHHH!

i swear, anyone that talks to me, asking me about things.
if im super super angry, i'll just scream.
i dont know what the forking heck is wrong with me.
i think im going through PMS if my sources are true about PMS.
which sucks to the max, cause ive stuffs to do !
&I CANT POSSIBLY PMS NOW ! IT'S LIKE, FORKING WRONG TIMING ! ):
seee how angry i am.

The worst thing is i dont forking know what's making me very angry.
i feel so vulnearable, so angry , and like as if im going insane.
i forking mad.
fork.fork.fork.fork.FORK!

I wish to go to the beach now and scream like super mad.

Wow, everything is like, flying in the speed of light.
school, studies, birthdays, shopping, school, studies, PIANO! {yeah, completely fast}
everything.
I mean, when was the last time you{the reader} ever sat down and reflect your actions.
some might say, last night. past few hours ago. previous hour. or even, last year during new year's eve.

I have to admit that i agree to what my piano teacher said.
why are there lesser singaporeans getting into schools like NAFA or Laselle?
Because singaporeans are too busy studying, doing homework, go for cca, revision and so on.
We have all the talent we need.
But no one recognize those talents because we think that people doing arts, music wont go far in life.
We spend too much time working on our flaws because 'they' say thats the only way to survive.
if we keep focusing on our flaws, arent we forgetting our strengths?

Okay, that was some random paragraph.
Okay, like what i said.
piano was completely fast. my fingers are not used to playing that section slowly anymore.
it's mad ! the moment i play slow, the next i'll run like mad.
like you cant stop it anymore !
oh.my.gawds. it was some nice shit, but somehow i think i have it make it work.
Really got to work it man. Jazz too. loving it, but needa work really hard.

Physics test was so screwed. i think if i can pass, i should be thankful.
Good job ah yeesuan. overwrite again. now, you never do finish, lost your 6marks.
well done ah. completely disappointed.

Amaths was nice(: i was stunned the paper was not as tough as i thought it would be.
Bio food test was also, sigh. mad mad mad.
Flu's really bad ); and i should have stayed at home. shucks.
okay, im getting my digestive biscuits and im off to study. ciaos ! (;

It's about a summer love that is short lived but we kind of , hold on to.

Was in a dilemma this morning at 6am.
Woke up as per normal. was feeling super sick all thanks to flu and cough.
Sorethroat was there. but after drinking some water, it was alright.
talked to mum and decided to call Ms Lee instead and seek her opinion about this.
So in the end, stayed at home { like what she told me to } and rest.

Slept till late, like 12plus. and still woke up feeling sick.
Visited the doc at around 3plus after lunch.
I was shocked by the doctor twice.
Went home and read physics.
On the way back, told dad to stop at the carpark near the HDB flats.
was hoping to see npcc peeps.
in the end, saw ncc peeps instead.
E look like some old old old old uncle with that wooden stick.
then he like smile to himself. was quite funny (:

The amazing thing, was i was unnoticed when all these happened.
I dont think son saw me too.
ohwell! so fun (:

Okay, i got to study. cheers to food test! { =,= }

Omg, really sicky.
I used 1{ almost finishing the second one} box of tissue.
&im still finding it hard to breathe { all thanks to those things stuck at you-know-where }

Ohman, why this week. test week, yet get this kind of shit.
Rawrs ! last night was horrible ! );
Completely H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E! ):
I hope everything gonna be alright tomorrow.
Gonna go training (:

&I want my subway ): Laogong, you better go i tell you.
If not, Me&R skin you alive. *muahahaha! evil laughters*
That sounded super retarded. ohwells !

Guess im gonna go read up on physics.
*ahhhhhhhhh-chu!* );

Was watching this in the morning while having breakfast.
Mark Ruffalo is cute (;

hah, thats really random. i wanna watch a lot of movies.
I wanna go shopping. *pouts*
Controlling for the sake of Prelims and Os.
I cant wait to eat subway with laogong and R (;
Tomorrow's the start of week5.
Week10 is prelim.
Wow, half a term is gone.
Really need to be serious with things already.

Ohyeah, but SY. i will still watch " My sisters keeper" no matter when :P
okay, maybe i'll watch a movie after my revision and homework. {hehehes!}
&can you believe it that the song in this post, was actually from Madonna? (:


Kyoshu(; not very intersting, but we were terrorising the place
{not literally} :D
Definitely look forward the end of year overseas trip(:
Love you girls ! (L)

&gosh, you really know where to start, fixing a broken heart.

Important lesson ive learnt so far in my life: Keep comments to yourself.

no matter what, just keep them to yourself.
It just takes 1 comment to ruin a relationship.
It just takes 1 comment to frame a friend.
It just takes 1 comment to take smash one's confidence.
It just takes 1 comment to make a person cry.
It just takes 1 comment to change a person's life.
It just takes 1 comment to kill a person's spirit.
It just takes 1 comment to feel alone.
It just takes 1 comment to change someone's perspective.
It just take that freaking comment, to change everyone's life.

I think ive said enough. change or not. up to yourself*.

Half blood prince's out (:
I dont care, im gonna book that stupid tickets on sunday. :D
*exciteds*

Piano was awesome. i love my new teacher (:
Hope things will be smoother from now on. &i dont think thats an english word (;


I still love this picture. (:
I remembered, i was happy that time.
very, very happy.
&the light was perfect when this picture was taken. (L)

I dont know why, i still hang it there.
It's nothing in particular.Just dont want to let the memories be forgotten ?
Hmph. when i wrote all those there, i was just putting a strong front.

&You* really look like someone.
Someone i know, but i cant remember who.
It feels like, ive seen you before and ive known you before this.
It feels like it.
Sorry, if ive conveyed a wrong message. i was just stunned/shocked when i saw you.

Time to study. ciaos ! (:

School's normal.
Dodo's the best.
Ahhao's blur.
Laopo's "gahhhh".
Hubby's very nice.
Shiwei's cheerful.
Zhehuan's Gay. (opps)
Zahin's bimbotic.
Myint's back( smiling super big )
Marcus's nonsense.

okay, im typing weird thing. but thats basically how things are (:
&Yes ahhao&wife, im happy that dodo exist (: really, thankful and happy.

YeeSuan:
Loves physics
Loves amaths
Loves chemistry
Loves biology
Loves studying
Loves talking chinese ( wrong-chinese ; haha, what a joke :D )
Loves Dodo
Loves MT oral conversation ( laughing with the examiner = fun :D )

I have no life , i know .(: to love studying and all those. but what to do ? okay, i wanna go study. ciao ! (:





"Feeling better today, much better today.feeling so much better"- Neyo; Better today







I just realised ive SCI video to edit, compre, O level music coursework draft and revision to do. &thinking of it now, it's quite a bit. Ohwell, slow and steady i guess. (:

Thanks to sleeping late and waking up at 1pm today, i wasted 3hours of my normal time to do revision and everything mentioned above. ohwell, opportunities like this{ to sleep till 1pm} comes by hard especially in times like this when all graduating students are really doing solid revision. DSA started not long ago and it's still going on. Guess im not taking part in DSA after much consideration. ohwell ! life goes on (:

QingNing introduced me her piano teacher last night, &im super over the moon i tell you. E gets what i mean :D its not finalised but im still over the moon ! i mean, ive asked quite a few friends to introduce their piano teachers. but most of them just told me, no. without even giving me their number or asking.*pft* so yeah. QingNing heard about what happened* and she immediately gave me his number. omggggggggggs, thanks babe ! (; i was literally jumping around my bed and going high :D it has been almost 2years since ms sharon stop teaching and me without a single help with music.

editted at 6.21pm:
omggggggg, it's finalised. IVE A PIANO TEACHER !!! :D &can you believe it ? she's a graduate from nafa ! *screams* diploma in piano performance :D though not QingNing's teacher, but i hope this one would work out (: yayeyayeyayeyayeyayeyayeyayeyayeyayeyaye ! im still over the moon (: okayyyy, off to practise piano. *still smiling* :D

Overly sad now, because the Youth Olympics topic came out for today's oral. dammit. i wanted that to come out for my oral. ohwells ! two topics out, many more to go. tsk !


I really need to work on music, geog, ss and english.
&definitely, Amaths and physics.
Last 3-4 months to reap what i sow.
i must reap a lot of thing . lol ! is that what reap means?
I think im using it in the wrong context. hahahaha !
Guess, i really gotta work work work work hard from now on.
&i guess, i just got to stop bothering about those stuff. cant believe there was such a side.. shesh!