All of a sudden, i feel so small.
I feel so lag.
I feel so dumb.
I feel so so so dumb.

With prelims less than 3weeks or maybe2,
im this unprepared.
&especially for music, i feel very irritated with myself.
Pratice for 2hours everyday, keep playing and practicing the piece. working on my phrasing.
everything. still, it sounds like stupid. what the heck is wrong with me.
I pity myself{ Sorry Lifecoach}, for being born with short fingers and a small hand
that i can only hit 7notes most. which is LESS THAN AN OCTAVE ! like what the hell.
&all pieces for higher grade, okay. even for grade 6 pieces, there are notes hitting an octave apart.
Im pathetic.

The only good thing that happened today was i owned the amaths practice paper.
Physics was, speechless. i really need to get myself in it.

yes yeesuan. you dont wanna lose to anyone.
thats the spirit. 101%. yes. thats the spirit, 101%.
you know your targets, 5distinctions.
Yes, you were able to meet your Midterm targets.
Make this no different from midterms.
Yes yeesuan. you dont wanna lose to anyone.