(time after time)

One word

Monday, November 30, 2009 || 11:56 PM

omg, only one word can be used to describe my feelings right now: UNLUCKY. went to work, ipod ran out of batt. Left work and went home, iPod is no longer with me. i nearly wanted to scream F non-stop. this is damn unlucky.

I'm so gonna call up my workplace at 10.45am tomorrow. i freaking dont care man. &now i feel the pinch of spending money. i need to spend my own money to get a new iPod. & the worst thing: IT Fair just ended. (i was right to ask my dad to get me an iPod Nano/iPod touch. i was so right) but he didnt ! (Argh)

The only,

Wednesday, November 25, 2009 || 11:30 PM

I've a feeling that im the only sec4 student from Orchid Park Secondary School that is back at home, reading a book and doing a bit of studying later. Well, as weird as this would sound, i love this kind of lifestyle? just reading and studying the subjects you love. (: Guess everyone's having fun at prom. It is weird that everyone left me MSN messages asking me stuff about prom. (hahahaha) Well, everyone would never thought that i would be spending quality time with family and studying. well, Spending time with TLT was wonderful and i enjoy every second with them (:

Working lifestyle starts tomorrow. &I cant wait to start work this coming monday at Promod. Im heading to Kinokuniya to get my physics book this coming monday too.(looking forward to it) Alrighty, i guess i better crash soon. first impression is very important! (: Ciaos!

Epiphany

Friday, November 20, 2009 || 11:02 PM

After a date, all of this would be over. All of this, would be gone. privated. left aside. You told me you wanted to be selfish. then i thought to myself, when was the last time i made a decision for myself? 7months ago. After a date, i would stand up for myself.

You've made me realized what i've been doing, is not me But who i have been trying to be, to avoid from being myself.

just for a day,

|| 12:09 AM

I've never felt so stucked. &hell yes, the feeling is awful. I've never felt this helpless in my life. Now, i can hardly breathe. Im trying my best, really trying my very best but to no avail. I need and want to breathe. I really want to breathe.

Back in town,

Friday, November 13, 2009 || 7:18 PM

I'm contented with today's shopping trip with Shiqi, Qingning and Jiayu. I think Jiayu& I went a bit kuku with the things at the art shop. but it was damn fun :D Saw quite a number of awesome things at FarEast and Ion. going back there soon to get them. I'm gonna start clearing the clothes in my closet. Was thinking of donating my clothes to the Salvation Army. Hope it's possible. Mom's birthday is this coming wednesday. &IM SUPERRRRRRR GUILTY! because i'll be in Malaysia till this coming wednesday,6pm{or later}. so technically, i cant spend her special day together with her )'; Daddy's going overseas on a business trip for the entire week, which makes things even worse. Putting myself in her shoes, i think its really unfair. ): hope to spend this weekend with her&hopes she dont make plans with her friends for the weekend so can spend some quality time together.

oh,& I wanna get a job ! *desperate cries* can anyone introduce a few to me?
Everyone. okay, most people, already got a job ! *jealous*
Hope the sitex thing works out. really want to try that out (:
Okay, i think dinner is calling me. Ciaos world ! (:

the upcoming month,

Wednesday, November 11, 2009 || 4:53 PM

O levels are finally over. (: Gonna get novels from the library soon. i really want to read that string theory book once again. how amazing ! Im keeping all my notes{okay, all except SS} and my assessment books. Who knows, all these might be useful if i ever wanna retake my Os or even for A levels or for poly. Not much plans so far for the hols {surprising eh}. but one thing that im positive about and am going to do is to make people happy during this hols. (:

I've figured things out. sometimes, when you dont get something you really want and hoped for, that doesnt mean you have to stand by the sidelines and not help others in getting the things that mean a lot to them. &sometimes, making people happy or seeing other people jumping for joy and squealing in happiness makes life wonderful.

I might have missed out many wonderful things and opportunities in the past. and im sure, i will miss out even more in the future{especially if im taking the As}. but i guess, for this short 1month or so, i will make the best out of it. (: Grad picture's will be up in this blog/facebook soon. (: my com has some dingdong and i cant get into the net. currently surviving on the labtop. oh,&my long post will be up real soon. it's gonna be along with my grad pics (:

QingNing: ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR MALAY&BIO PAPER TOMORROW ! dont worry, you'll write something one for your malay paper ! (; friday friday yeah ! :D

Ciaos world ! (:

sealed,

Monday, November 9, 2009 || 1:44 PM

the funniest thing now, is i know my title for this post.but i do not have the slightest idea of how to write the body of the post. i guess now isnt the best time for things. but once again, it's sealed.

ive a premonition of my health.

Invisible life,

Sunday, November 8, 2009 || 8:54 PM

Whenever you're close to me
I feel a trembling inside.
And then you approached me that day,
suddenly a piece of mind.
But I don't want to leave.

I'm not worthy of this higher being in the life.
I'm truly, holy, but I know I'm confined to this ground.
Invisible life.

Whenever the rush recedes,
my reality melts away.
I'm turning on the TV screen.
It appears we're all ok.
But I don't want to leave.

I'm not worthy of this higher being in the life.
I'm truly holy, but I know, I'm confined to this ground.
Cause I can hear this humble silence creeping to my house.
I know it feels like coming home.
But I can't go this time.

I'm taking my own chances to find truth between the lies.
Its kinda like just what it is.
So I've got to try.

Cause I can hear this humble silence creeping in your house.
I know it feels like coming home.
But I can't go this time.

I'm not worthy of this highness, feeling in the life.
I'm truly holy, but I know I'm confined to this ground.
Cause I can hear this humble silence creeping to my house.
I know it feels like coming home.
But I can't go this time.
Invisible life.

Almost, Almost.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009 || 5:47 PM

3 more papers. last 3 papers. im almost there.
Finally a day i can catch my breath. *phew*

Almost there. Really almost there.
I cant speak, i cant dream.