Well, 2oo9 was really some clumsy year filled with numerous mistakes, wrong decisions, misunderstandings and not forgetting, losing things. Of course, there's a good side of 2oo9. (: Ohwell ! I still have one more important decision to make. yes, the moment i open that results slip. the moment i see my score and the moment that changes everything. how much my four years in secondary school is worth and how much more i must do to make it worthwhile.

I keep telling myself and everyone else, dont go crazy and all. everything is 'carved to stone'. (Quoted from Ms Lee G. Y) hahaha ! yes, it was carved to stone the day we sat for our O level papers. However, i am still freaking out ( deeep down ). No one can imagine how scared i am right now about this. Retake or carry on? Jc or Poly? Retake or Poly? The feeling of knowing it's not your best shot, freaks me out. If you know its your best, at least you'll not worry or freak out as much as me. It's knowing it's not your best shot, you want to cry and freak out even more. Dilah told me everything's already done at MOE now. waiting to be sent to our school. Now, im just waiting for time to pass by. still freaking out and super afraid ! ): hopefully, it would turn out alright. (keeping my 10fingers and 10toes crossed!)

Tomorrow's the first day of school (: ( not for me). and speaking of school, i miss school. LIKE. CRAZY. Hopefully JC would be something like that (; alrighty, got to get medicine and more stuffs tomorrow. SOMEONE'S SICK ! \: ciaos ! Pictures of my trip will be uploaded soon(i hope).

I realised, i didnt have a life from may till November. History will repeat itself right ? but this time, i cant bear to treat you that way. i know, i can never..